Your Good Only till Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow are different story

 Well I thought I can relax and spend rest of my life at peace, unfortunately I had forgotten my own rule you are good only till yesterday, today and tomorrow are different. It applies to every one alive in this planet earth.

You take care of things for 25 years and still you get questioned what is next, you cannot say I took care of things for 25 years its all dusted in sand and new is required, this you will have endure till you meet Death, even then don't be astonished when people say he left world without taking care of us for next of our lives.

Be it any relationship be it Father son, Father Daughter, Wife its all the same no one is going to tell you thanks for taking care of us they will tell it was your duty, no matter how good you earn, yes this will not imply to people who have enough to leave that the rest generations can eat without working.

No matter how good moments of life are when you bought something which was out of your reach, you cannot crib that I took care the past tense and present tense and future tense are all different things, priorities change, you bought your son his first bicycle you are hero and 5 years down the life if you don't buy bike then you are good for nothing, he will not remember you were the same who bought the bicycle as his priorities change you need to earn enough to take care of things.

This is the ugly truth of life well there may be some exceptions unfortunately I am not that exception, you earn bread to your family what you get to hear so what's special every man has to do you are not different, you slog to ensure you give everything to family and you still get to hear so what's something you have done.

This implies if you earn nothing and even if you earn 5 lakhs a month the question is still the same, the only thing that will keep going till you kick bucket is you need to prove you are worthy of respect, things have changed in life.

Getting back again to run to prove, no one will ask you how many loans you have or what problems you have its all about keeping things in time whether be it your kids or your lady love the world is materialistic, you earn and you tell lets do some saving next question comes you are the earner and the controller so you save what have we go to do.

Sincere advice if you want to escape this then earn enough else be ready to listen to these and die and also listen after your death

I can leave this world without regrets

 I stand at a point if death comes I can go along without cribs and regrets.

1) Increased population by 3

2) Got both son and daughter stand on their feet

3) Reached Director level in professional life

4) Gave good life with practicals to kids made then strong enough to face life

5) Earn enough to take care of life & emergencies

6) Work for 100hrs month and earn good enough to be part of 0.2% of population

7) Taught kids how to fish for themselves rather than giving fish 

Thanking allah 

All is well that ends well

 The saying looks so nice when you feel all is well that ends well, which is the outcome but the journey to reach this outcome comes with lot of ups and down, mood swings, frustration, hope and ambiguity. It all started on July 20th when Naif got Job visa, this is the tip of iceberg, the work of building and maintaining  relationship no one sees it.

Went in for medical test for Naif got shock of life when he was given medically unfit certificate as he had HCV Antibodies positive, so this led to finding out what's the problem, but figure out that its not a problem but a condition where in antibodies which are for protecting body becomes problem.

Were told to do RNA test which came out Negative, then started the medical appeal for clearance waiting for mails from the board and keeping hope alive, nothing worked and gave up completely, then comes next got him to Dubai on visit and then we get surprise that Medically Fit comes here in Dubai.

Nice to see all my efforts of ensuring that my grand children will have good life coming true, both Nadia & Naif have been settled with there career path, hoping allah will give them all the success they deserve, nice to see the fruits of the seeds you planted, took care of the sapling, making it a health tree to grow and give shade.

Again comes next question what is next for me, this is the question which I have been answering every time i finish one goal, well anyways getting prepared to start the next journey which I had decided not to start that I taking my career to next levels.

Lets see what Allah has in store for me

Learnt New things in life

Learnt new thing in life that when you grow from a spring to river your job is to flow whether anything happens or not whether you get polluted or not or people misuse the river water or not is not river problem as river has to flow that's the only job which river has to do.

If river feels I am being misused and want to stop you know what happens the river dries up and becomes a pond or lake and these both disappear over a period of time and people just remember that there use to be here a river.

The fate is simple and people forget there use to be river flowing here and by span of decade you disappear from every record. so the job of river is to keep flowing and that's what I learnt which means till I hit the tombstone my job is to keep flowing not for other but for keeping my identity alive till I reach point of no return.

So even if you reach point of no return you need to build yourself as river that you create things so that you keep flowing every after reaching point of new return as public memory is very short.

Time just flies what I saw is know what I see through my kids

 I still remember the day when I first held my daughter in my hand, the same being when I held Naif and Narmin. Still I have fresh memories of there walking for 1st time or saying there 1st words, all memories are just unwinding today and its been 24 years, never knew where the time flew and today its stand still.

Still remember taking them to school seeing there faces on the 1st day of there school and walking with them step by step. Today they all have grown up and I am happy I have ensured that they become good human beings first and then professionals.

Daughter Nadia Naaz became the 1st Girl to become Engineer of entire khandaan of my grand father, Naif became 1st to work at just 16 years and the youngest one Narmin will be the 1st psychologist. Lots of things happened went through ups and down but I am happy that I have instilled the way they need to look at life be it the personal or professional.

Nadia is working in Media something which I never wanted but fate is the best decider, never expected Naif to work and study as he spoke for the 1st time when he was 6yrs old and his 1st words were ABBA and not AMMI.

Today I feel happy and proud when I call them and they pick call and just say I am in meeting I will call you back once free, these words give me the accomplishment of my achievements which I am living in their lives.

I taught them to lead independent lives, taught them to face hurdles though they were too young sometimes feel I was harsh but today I don't have any such as they have learnt and understood what I want them to become.

I know its still too early, but as my Kannada teacher Nagarathnamma said you can see a tree growth even when its in sapling stage.

Wishing my kids all the best in there life and wanting them to go higher and higher to break all the records which I have set for them, I am sure they will be break and create better records for themselves.

Fighting A Lonely Battle

The memories remind me of my starting days of sprinting and running when it all started the journey from clerk to CEO has come a full circle, The challenge when I started was to prove a point that I am worth something, the best part is today also I am still proving that I am worth something but not for myself but for others.

Feeling is like you build sand castle on sea shore and one tide comes and washes it as if the castle never existed, when you tell this you hear are you the only one every one goes through this, well no complaints.

Bottom line is you were good only till yesterday and today is different day well accepted hence started again to sprint and run this time not to prove a point but scale my new heights by 2030 in case alive want to be on Board of Adviser for few companies continue the learning with same zeal with which I came till here.

Got kids there jobs they are doing good but from here where they go is uptown them you can get horse but rider has to ride where he wants which time will tell,

The nest which was built nurtured is where I am all alone but now I feel need to start flying again got something happening tomorrow hope it will not disappoint me anyways thousand times have fallen but stood up again.

Sometimes being battle ready and still don't know when things change, when you get chance to prove your  worth is sometimes frustrating, well my work is to be battle ready hoping times comes to prove as life says yes time will come calling your name, lets see

All alone back to square Zero

 Well in 52 years life has come full circle and today I am standing all alone to start from scratch, I remember my father words TILL YOU GIVE YOU WILL BE RESPECTED ONCE YOU STOP GIVING YOU ARE GOOD FOR NOTHING.

I always use to say to my clients Yesterday is history and how good are you today is the question well its now applicable to me also.

Decision you take on scenarios haunt you back after time passes, yes its true when hit by covid lost 5N and my hefty earnings today I get questioned as in present I am not earning that 7 figure earning.

I also tell my clients once if you can make then you can make many number of times yes this is what will be applicable to me.

Will be starting again from ground zero