All alone back to square Zero

 Well in 52 years life has come full circle and today I am standing all alone to start from scratch, I remember my father words TILL YOU GIVE YOU WILL BE RESPECTED ONCE YOU STOP GIVING YOU ARE GOOD FOR NOTHING.

I always use to say to my clients Yesterday is history and how good are you today is the question well its now applicable to me also.

Decision you take on scenarios haunt you back after time passes, yes its true when hit by covid lost 5N and my hefty earnings today I get questioned as in present I am not earning that 7 figure earning.

I also tell my clients once if you can make then you can make many number of times yes this is what will be applicable to me.

Will be starting again from ground zero

Been fighting every day for last 15 years

When I look back I get into two minds, one questions did I become something in life and other tells me that I have survived last 15 years with every day fighting to survive. Its mixed feeling, came out of retirement as I couldn't just sit and relax and take life as it comes, Rightly said Ships are not built to stay in harbour but they are built to fight sea waves.

Every day its fight of survival, I keep telling I haven't seen salary credited sms for last 15 years, I hope its worth achievement, every day starts with ambiguity, suddenly things change within seconds and suddenly things go worst in seconds.

That's the life of fighting to survive, yes agree that every working professional does fight every day, but fighting with only hope that tomorrow things will happen is very difficult.

Suddenly you get client and transfers funds but sometimes need to keep following up for payments, sometimes I feel that I am nothing but mere professional beggar but sometimes I feel I have lived life to fully extent with all the curiosities and ambiguities life brings every second.

Hope and believing yourself plays a vital role in life of entrepreneurs there were times when I was good for nothing but the will to change and overcome the tide is what makes life, all philosophers and writers can write amazing stories but the one who faces it knows how one goes through it with full turbulence hitting you from every where but you keep searching for land with hope things will go well.

Sometimes I feel I have taken enough beating and just become a rock which has smoothened due to water hitting it continuously but still withstanding the beating and staying in same place takes lot of guts, courage, believe in yourself and hope.

Anyways have come back to normalcy ready to face topsy turvy curves again.

Retirement is pathetic

 Came back to bangalore on 31st January it's been 28 days since I took retirement life has come to standstill. Was happy to retire with decent 6 figure royalty coming with son working and daughter getting ready to work, but life has become pathetic just sitting and passing out time with no work.

At home everyone is why is this person at home, if I talk then they tell me you don't know and you talk much and its irritating why don't you search for a job, I came here to relax and doing no work still earning 6 figures but unfortunately I was wrong.

Once ramzan is done I think its time to pack bags and head back to Dubai, staying here for more time will lead me to dementia and literally going mad, had enough of these 28days with not working but still earning decently.

I think I need to revisit my life and get it back to track by April will be back to Dubai