5N survives ONE year in Dubai

 Hi it's been 1yr that 5N has survived and kept things alive, well nothing much to cherish but nothing to frown in financial world called as break even. Had topsy curvy for this whole year. Getting things back to normal but still long way to go, well things at moment are fine going on keeping alive got new clients surviving the Global market is challenging, fighting mental battles fighting being away from family. Things have slowly changed. 

Have become not only father but god father to my son shaping him not shaping but nurturing him and seeing him walk on the way to become chartered accountant I feel like I am becoming one, well he has followed my path at age of 16 he started earning and know working with CA firm earning for himself and managing it reminds me on my time when I started at same age working and taking care of things.

When I see his dedication and the way he talks I just get reminded of my days, nothing much to complain going on well got retainer client which is taking care of things, learning new things new industries in this global market is keeping me on toes.

The only wish I have at this point is though I have taken away that chirpiness of my son from being normal I hope he gets his reward not interms of his career which I know he will not lose out as he is learning from the CEO as how to take care of life. The only wish is he should get all the happiness of life which I lost.

I always tell my son SHIPS ARE NOT MEANT TO BE IN HARBOUR well the same applies to me at this age of 50 I am also learning new things and fighting day in and day out, been 13 years since I started this company and its been 13 years where in I haven't depended on SMS which you get once in month while working.

Today a funny incident happened when one CA here in Dubai referred 5N to his client and the client referred to his client finally only to find out that the the client was my old client of 2 years well this goes on to say Dubai is aware of 5N.

Well nothing much to say just got carried away and remembered missing of life. Its been decade since I missed life hope I will meet life.

Its good to stop at sometimes

 Things have been bit harsh at me been with tension for last 2 days but best part I realised is you react to things which are not in your control and things which are created by people around you and the best part is that you keep fighting it when all it requires is just to stop and relax, as things that are not in your control will never come under your control.

Sometimes I feel no matter what you put across what's written will happen so its better to switch off yourself and go to hibernating mode as the whole body will detox itself and then you can start again where you left.

There is no where written that you need to keep running and trying to change others and situations so the best way is just relax and let the music begin. No matter what ever you do to keep people happy they will always have some or the other problem from you which leads to unnecessary situation where in you feel that though you are not responsible but still being held accountable.

I think this is the sign that you should switch off your brain that's what I am doing know, all of my life went in keeping people happy no matter what ever be the situation but know at this age I realise that no point in keeping people around you happy and forgetting to be happy.

Next 3 days will be switched off from the whole world and try finding inner peace

All alone I think I was designed this way

 Just becoming bit nostalgic going down the lane, right from 43 years back when I was 7 yr old kid both my mon and dad left me for my mother doctor checkup and I was alone in house and lights went off sitting all alone in dark and deserted area which it was in those days sitting alone and moment of wind causing bone chilling sound and with lizard squeaking out, I was in tears that is the day when I faced loneliness and from that day have been all alone.

I always believe in one proverb a gazelle has to run faster than cheetah to see next day sunlight,a cheetah has to run faster than gazelle to live another day been in this situation since last 43 years, today being 50 its all the same every day have to hunt and keep hunger away, the best part is you are held responsible for actions which happen which is not under your control.

No one looks at the pain you undergo as pleasure and every one looks at pleasure which they see on my face, sometimes feel just need to hang my boots, but can't do it, for my birth I was not responsible and the whole of life has been like that, I was not responsible for any one's action but still I get hanged.

Going through doldrums but still need to get up everyday and fight for the day with hope of tomorrow, it may sound very dramatic but that's life we all have colors on our face and mask's and inner face is something which no one wants to know.

Can keep writing millions of words but it will still not describe what I am going through, have got used to this life of loneliness times I feel this is my world where I am responsible for every one's life and there expectations

Words cannot describe what I go through but I still feel what I am going through is just minuscule when I see other around me going through.

Just having laugh at myself as my own inner conscious is saying you are having a different colour and mask today.

History Repeats after 29 years

 29 years back I remember me giving my first salary to my dad I was 19 years at that time, well history has repeated after 3 decades when my son got his first pay cheque on 14th June 2023, my first salary was 1020 rs in 1994 and my son got 12,000 which is like 11.5 times higher that what I got, well happy for one more reason is that my dream to see my son in my shoes is happening, he calculates same way as I calculate, we both have become buddies than father and son.

next 5 years will be crucial for both of us hope things will be fine, just un able to sleep as thinking of seeing my son heading 5NBC

Next line getting ready for 5NBC

 May 2nd marked a special day in my life and in the life of 5NBC, the next generation of 5NBC is shaping up, yes that's the good news, well its my son Naif Ahmed who is going to be next generation to take care of 5NBC. Though he has been earning and studying a new leap happened when he joined chartered accounting firm in jayanagar as intern and he will be there for next 5 years till he comes out as a Chartered Accountant to take on the reins of 5NBC to next levels.

As a father I am happy that my son is slowly stepping into my shoes, he wants to be a investment banker something I missed, I am putting in all my experience and my information to him so that when steps into the shoes he is at least 10 years ahead of me.

He will be studying in evening college and morning working with chartered accountant so he gets both the book knowledge and the practicality which is missing these days in the graduates who pass out with degrees in hand, he did his 11th and 12th working and studying which reminded me of my old days where in I never had the luxury of just studying which I always envied but today I feel all happened was for good, he is slowly maturing into good professional.

Hence I am building his platform in Dubai, so that in next 5 years when he finishes his graduation and becomes CA I would have build a platform for him in Dubai, happy to see him calculate everything on numbers and numbers.

So buy the time he is done studying 5NBC would have been 18 years old company so the platform is ready for next generation to enter and take it to next levels.

Going on Good back to building from Zero

 Well things are shaping up well again started building again from zero, no idea why god choose me always to start again from zero, I don't know when my time will come, well life  us to say don't worry time will call and come. There is no substitute to hardwork, but apart from that you also need Lady Luck to smile at you.

Back again to starting from zero well going on well slowly building, getting clients again here in Dubai, well to be frank it has taken me back to 1994 when I use to stay alone in room cook and eat all alone just me and myself.

Well things have come back a full circle, staying all alone with me and myself, but still enjoying the loneliness and this loneliness is the strength that is keeping me alive with spirit to fight and come back just like they say phoenix raises from ash.

Well missing lot of things but these things are pushing me and making me more stronger, more than me more anxious of my son Naif becoming a Chartered Accountant I never waited for anything in life the way I am waiting for his result.

I would feel all my struggle reached a point and god rewarded me the day when I see him as Chartered Accountant and the CA sticker on his car.

Well lets wait and watch.

Dubai the land of struggle & dreams

 Hi life is good going on at least have my whole body in one piece, well got my residence visa of Dubai for 2 years, got a good swanky office in Latifa Towers Sheikh Zayed Road, at last got my Emirates ID and my bank account opened in CBD commercial Bank of Dubai.

Have decided that I need to settle in Dubai, well got partnership offer in a consulting firm which is 12 yrs old and always wanted to work with a woman of substance who has built this company centurion consulting, waited for 20 long years to work with her.

Have got good platform to showcase all the experience I have gained across the globe, well the intention for the first time in life is to make money, all these years I was just enjoying life but know have decided that earning money is more important as all happiness around you revolves on what you earn well I may be wrong but every one learns his own lessons from life.

The other reason why I have moved is to ensure that I make my son what I couldn't become Top Class Investment Banker, so by the time he completes his CA I would have built platform for my son to launch his life.

I want him to enjoy his life, I want to give all the happiness that I missed in life to him, but surprisingly blessed with a son who is like why spend lets save, never asked for anything, happy go lucky lad, I truly wish from my heart and pray that he should get the best in life and always happiness for him.

Nothing much to share just started new life again I think this will be my 5th rebirth, but well I don't mind starting again and again till I reach grave. there is a famous Persian proverb which says get up and get up no matter how many times you are stuck by lighting a point will come where lighting will get tired of striking you.

Just giving too much of Gyan well new journey new life will update soon.